61. "MY APOLOGIES"
I'm looking at the mile-long list of names that I owe an apology to, I've been a monster to so many and I wouldn't be surprised in my name ended in a bad romance novel. I've lied to some, misled a lot, I've hit it once and never returned, but I'm not proud of it, I guess that is why I'm writing these apologies.
I'm probably dead to some girls, my sorry probably doesn't mean shit anymore and to many girls, I'm the guy that they'll tell a horror story about. I wasn't ready for love, I wasn't ready to change and I wasn't wise enough to realize the good ones, I'm taking the blame for all the failed situations, my apologies.
Sometimes I sit and think about it all, like "What if I really gave it a try? She could've showed me some good love with her good heart and well intentions", but I've forgiven myself for always trying to run away from something, so I hope everybody that I apologize to forgives me too.
I know I can't rewrite the past, this doesn't even change my karma but to every girl that I wasn't good to, these are my apologies.
62. "LONG TIME, NO LOVE"
Night after night, I'm up at 3am, touching and pleasing myself but this shit ain't doing it for me. It's been a long damn time since I've seen clothes, panties and shoes creating a trail to the bed, it's been a long time no love.
I miss being craved for, I miss being sought after and chosen, I miss all of that shit. I can't recall the last time I put my hands on something soft, thick and brown, I miss changing positions and hearing sex sounds from a girl that wishes to never live without my pleasure anymore.
Long time no love, every time when I feel like making love, I make love to myself but I miss having somebody to make love to, taking off the panties and leaving nothing on, kissing on a soft skin while I'm getting hard as a rock..
Long time no love.