Feeling a deep sense of frustration I vented those feelings out loud.
For some inexplicable reason I was not able to mold my chakra into anything at all.
In the text it tells the reader that the practitioner should be able to create rough shapes from chakra, although when I attempt to do that absolutely nothing happens.
No matter how much chakra I push to the point that I'm attempting to conjure it, no subsequent reaction occurs.
It's almost as if something is blocking me from being able to mold my chakra.
I lay down and look at my ceiling in a frustrated way, no matter what I do I can't mold it.
Molding your chakra is the one of if not the most important methods of utilizing chakra. It's the component of Jutsu casting that lets someone use and form Jutsu.
I stand up and start to pace around the room as my mind races with different thoughts.
Even though I can't mold chakra and therefore can't use most Jutsu there are still avenues that are open to me.
One of those avenues are Kenjutsu and Taijutsu as a main form of fighting.
There are three amazing examples which show that if you master these forms of fighting you can still contend and even exceed the highest level or strength in this world.
The first example is Guy and Rock Lee. They are most likely the most skilled Taijutsu practitioners in the world. Madara even proclaimed that Guy was the most skilled Taijutsu user.
Another good example are the Samurai from the Land of Iron. They were said to be extremely strong but I don't remember much from them, the only memorable person was Mifune.
Still, as main forms of combat they are definitely strong. There are even ranged options there, and even the Eight Gates.
What else would still be available to me..
Would Fuinjutsu still be usable?
Hmm.. I actually don't know I would have to test it out. Fuinjutsu hasn't expanded on that well from what I remember so I'm excited to see what it can actually do now that I'm here.
Another pathway that definitely wouldn't be closed off is Senjutsu. Senjutsu comes from something outside of the person themself, so it should work unless I'm missing a vital component in how Senjutsu operates.
Genjutsu may work but I don't know how I would be able to affect the other person's mind with chakra when I can't extend it outside my body. Maybe physical contact would work? Another thing I would have to test.
"It's not the end of the world but this really does put a hole into my plans for the future. Mastering a bunch of cool Jutsu would've also been cool.." I hang my head in a self deprecating way.
I slap my cheeks leaving red marks.
"No, this is just a challenge I have to overcome. I have an able body that can become stronger, that's all I need."
I think back to the days of laying in that dreadful hospital bed with a myriad of wires connecting to me all the time. I don't miss those days, seeing my hair fall out, throwing up constantly, getting pity from anyone who saw me.
I look blankly into space remembering those moments, feeling the despair I felt with every second back then.
I suddenly jumped up to my feet.
"Things are different now. I get a real chance to live in the world, not only that I can practically gain super powers if I train hard enough! This is the best second chance I'll ever get and I'm not gonna squander it by being all depressed that I can't use Jutsu, there are still so many things I can do!"
I first make sure of the things I can do with chakra.
I can tell that I can increase the amount of chakra within my body along with also being able to widen my chakra veins. That means I can use chakra to strengthen myself, I can also become strong like Tsunade who was able to punch through a Susano.
I have to decide which path I want to go down though, Taijutsu or Kenjutsu… I think about the possibility of Guy finding me, throwing a ugly green track suit at me, and making me handstand walk through the village..
Shivers..
"I think I'll go with swords, yeah swords are cool, that's definitely the only reason I'm picking Kenjutsu."
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Later on in the day I returned the books that I checked out from the Library and traded them in for some books about Kenjutsu.
After coming home and reading up on it more there seem to be more options with Kenjutsu than I thought.
There are a lot of techniques that someone could use to enhance their ability with the sword.
Some are mainly physical while others require the use of chakra.
One of the things I'll have to test is whether or not I can imbue something I'm holding with chakra, that will be decently vital if I want to be any good with sword. Perhaps since it's something I'm physically holding it will be easier?
I'll most likely only be able to test that once I get a chakra metal sword. Those allow for easy use of chakra throughout the weapon.
I look at my window and see that it's about six in the afternoon. The sun is still in the sky and there is a crisp breeze from my opened window.
I think about the past couple days and everything that I've learned. Not just about chakra or my future but about my mother in this life. I also think about who Rajin would've been had I not come and barged into his body.
I internally promise him that I will pay him back for this body by taking care of his mother no matter what.
I stand up from the desk and resolutely say -
"It's time to train for the first time!"