Following the previous phase of cross-spatial indirect information contact, Liana touched on alien extraction in her new program. She noted that countless people who had previously made contact with them harbored an intense desire to be taken off Earth by aliens, and she said she understood, given the state of the planet. Some even resorted to deception and extortion in an attempt to achieve this goal. She went on to explain that rules prohibited them from doing so, adding that life beyond Earth was no stranger to its own share of hardships and challenges.
就在前一阶段的隔空间接信息接触之后,在莉安娜的新节目中,她谈到了外星提取.她说之前和他们接触的无数人都有着强烈的欲望希望被外星人提取离开地球,她说考虑到地球的状况,她也理解.有些人甚至采取了欺骗敲诈他们的方式试图达到目的.然后她解释了限于规则他们不能那么做,又解释了其实地球之外的宇宙里同样有着各种生活中的难题.
Lin Yuhui found this faintly amusing. Did they take me for someone like those people? When have I ever begged anyone for help? I've weathered every storm on my own. Only total failures in life grovel for others to clean up their messes.
林语晖觉得有点好笑,这是把我也当成和他们一样的人了吗?自己什么时候会乞求别人?一路走来,都是自己扛,只有那些人生的失败者才会去乞求别人给自己收拾烂摊子.
He'd already made his choice when faced with that age-old dilemma: die on your feet or live on your knees. His feelings for them had started as sympathy and pity for Liliya, slowly evolving into a quiet sort of concern, tinged with an inexplicable urge to peer into the unknown threads of fate, a curiosity he could not quite name.
对于站着死还是跪着活的这个人生考题,他已经选择过了.自己对她们的感觉,只是从莉莉娅开始的同情与怜悯,渐渐地变成一种淡淡的牵挂,牵挂之中还有着一种莫名的对未知宿命的窥视与好奇.
Could Liana be my daughter? Or my granddaughter? She shared so many traits with him, and his regard for her carried none of the romantic or sexual pull a woman might feel for a man—only a desire to care for her, to protect her. But the feeling was odd, especially when he thought of Liana and Liliya at the same time, as if the two were sparring in his mind. Some stray thought kept creeping in: what if Liana was the child of him and Liliya?
莉安娜会不会是我的女儿或者外孙女?她和自己有那么多的相似之处,并且自己对她的感觉没有女性对男性性欲望方面的吸引,只是想要关心她,爱护她.但是这感觉又很奇怪,尤其是在同时想到莉安娜和莉莉娅的时候,就好像她们会在自己的脑子里打架一样.不知道哪里来的念头会觉得莉安娜是自己和莉莉娅的孩子.
Liana also had dark eyes. She took responsibility for her actions, disliked others meddling in matters under her purview, insisted on clear boundaries to keep outside interference from disrupting her work, and held herself fully accountable for all outcomes within her jurisdiction.
莉安娜也是黑眼睛,对自己的行为负责,不喜欢别人掺和自己范围内的事情,强调划清界限防止他人干扰自己的工作内容,并且对自己的管辖内的后果完全负责.
She loved racing too, spoke little, but had a steely, unyielding disposition. She adored the works of Tchaikovsky and Rachmaninoff—she was practically a mirror image of himself.
她也喜欢赛车,少言寡语,但是性格坚毅.她也喜欢柴可夫斯基和拉赫玛尼诺夫的作品,简直就是自己的复刻版.
She'd brought up the ethical quandaries stemming from Liliya's timeline jumps multiple times before, but had never elaborated in her videos. Was she waiting for him to speak first?
之前她多次提到过莉莉娅的时间线跳跃引发伦理的问题,但是一直没有在视频中详细说明,难道是在等我开口吗?
Lin Yuhui did not resent Liana for broaching the topic of alien extraction first, cutting off any chance for him to bring it up, nor did he think she was looking down on him. He'd never intended to raise the issue anyway, and would never let such utilitarian motives taint the pure affection he held for her.
林语晖并没有埋怨莉安娜先把外星提取的事情说了出来,堵住自己的嘴,或者小瞧自己.因为他自己也没有那个意图,也不想让那种功利的目的污染自己对她的纯洁感情.
He was no failure, so he hadn't taken any blow to his pride by putting himself in those people's shoes, nor had he flown into a fit of pique. It was only when scrolling through thumbnails of Liana's video programs that a fleeting sense of déjà vu struck him—the images before him felt achingly familiar. Was it from a dream? Another timeline? Or had his brain's ability to track temporal sequence glitched for a split second?
自己本来就不是那种人生失败者,所以也没有把自己带入那个处境的自尊心受挫然后炸毛.只是在浏览莉安娜视频节目封面的时候,一瞬间觉得眼前的画面似乎之前见过?既视感,不知道是来自于之前的梦里,还是另一个时空,亦或是脑子对于时间先后顺序的感知在这一刻坏掉了.
In the message he'd sent Liana earlier, he'd used the word "cousin"; in turn, she'd responded with the term "kin" in the title of her latest program. She'd added that with Lydia and Liliya gone now, she was left all alone.
之前给莉安娜发的信息里,自己使用了cousin这个单词,而莉安娜也在她的节目标题中用kin这个词回应了.还附和说现在莉迪娅和莉莉安娜也离开了,只剩下她自己很孤单.
Lin Yuhui wanted to share his gnawing suspicions with her, to let this girl, orphaned and left so achingly lonely, feel the love of a father here, to know what it was like to be cared for by family. But for a Chinese person, telling a stranger "you are my daughter" was tantamount to uttering that most vulgar of Chinese curses. Heh. The mere thought made his face burn with embarrassment.
林语晖想把自己的疑惑感觉告诉她,让离开妈妈孤单至此的她在这里能得到爸爸的爱,能拥有被亲人关爱的感觉.可是对于中国人来说,对一个陌生人说你是我的女儿,就好像中国那句国骂.呵呵,这真的太难为情了.
Yet nothing could quell the urge to pour out his heart. On March 21, 2025, seated at his computer, he began drafting a message once more:
"My dearest Liana, I do not know if I ought to tell you how I feel about you. Please forgive me if anything I say causes you offense—I only wish to ease the loneliness you're carrying right now. What I am about to tell you is no fabrication; it is the truth of what I feel, even if I cannot trace where this feeling comes from. I believe you may be my daughter. Or perhaps my granddaughter. That is why I held back from reaching out to you for some time. My heart has been in turmoil—some days I lean into this affection for you, other days I push it away, especially when I think of you and Liliya together. It is all so muddled. So I stayed silent because I did not want you to be burdened by these messy, conflicted emotions of mine. I have noticed we share so many traits: that steely resolve of yours, your refusal to shy away from responsibility for your actions. Your unwillingness to take on tasks when others might interfere with outcomes you are accountable for, your determination to keep outsiders from ruining work you have sworn to see through. We both adore the classical works of Tchaikovsky and Rachmaninoff. We both love racing, and flying. We both have dark eyes, and hearts that are far too tender, far too easy to wound. Every choice, every step that led you here, has a reason behind it. So please savor this journey of yours. Do not let yourself feel lonely, or sad. So many people love you, and walk beside you. If you must blame someone, blame Lydia—who knows what schemes that little head of hers is hatching? Perhaps she knows everything. In this timeline, you are the beloved one. These thoughts have lived in my head for so long. I have chosen to share them with you now, hoping this does not become the subject of rumors spreading through the entire starship when you wake up tomorrow morning—just a joke, of course. I imagine your people are not as obsessed with gossip about public figures as Earthlings are. But the truth is, I love you. Do not worry, though—I will not let myself come to harm, so you must not either. Be strong. And please pass along my regards to your team, including the military. I trust they have done a great deal of work behind the scenes to protect you, to expose evil, and to safeguard Tayget. You have your duties, after all. Please do not spend too much time fretting over me."
只是一切都挡不住他那颗想要倾诉的心,2025年3月21日,坐在电脑前,他又开始拟稿,
"亲爱的莉安娜,我不知道我是否应该告诉你我对你的感觉,请原谅我如果你感到了任何的冒犯,我只是希望你能对现在的孤单感觉好点.我将要对你说的不是编造的,是我的真实感觉,虽然我不知道它是从哪里来的.我觉得你可能是我的女儿或者孙女.那就是为什么我在一段时间里没有试图联系你.因为我的心中很乱,时而喜欢你时而拒绝,尤其是当我同时想到你和莉莉娅的时候,很混乱.所以有一段时间我没有试图联系你,不想你感受到我这样有毒的感觉.我发现我们共享一些共同的特点,比如坚毅,对自己的行为后果负责任.在他人影响自己职责内行为后果的时候不愿意去承担这样的任务,不想被别人搞砸自己负责任的事情.我们都喜欢柴可夫斯基和拉赫玛尼诺夫的古典音乐作品,喜欢赛车或者飞机,都有黑色的眼睛和一颗容易受攻击的心脏.每一个选择,选择到这里,都有一个原因.所以请享受你在此的旅程,不要觉得孤独或者伤心,许多人爱你,与你同在.如果一定要埋怨一个人,那就是莉迪娅,谁知道她小小的脑袋里装着什么,或许她知道一切,在这条时间线里,你是那个被爱戴的.以上在我的脑子里很久了,现在选择告诉你,希望这不会变成你一早醒来,关于塔吉特女王的流言在整个太空船里流传,玩笑,我想你们的人不会像地球人一样热衷于名人流言.但真实的是爱你,但是你别担心,我不会让自己受伤的,所以你也不要,要坚强.并且请代为转达我对你的团队包括军方致意.我相信他们在背后做了很多工作保护你和揭露邪恶并保护塔吉特.并且你有你的职责,请不要在我身上花费太多时间."
Lin Yuhui had mentioned Liana's team and the military because, in a space news program several days prior, Liana had revealed that an attempted kidnapping had taken place during one of her virtual appearances. In the days following, she had indeed been shaken, spending most of her time holed up in her own quarters. Lin Yuhui understood her predicament well—Chinese history was rife with such stories: newly ascended young emperors surrounded by powerful factions vying for control.
林语晖之所以提及莉安娜的团队和军方,是因为她在几天前的太空新闻节目中提及了自己的一次虚拟访问中,遭遇了绑架企图.在那之后的时间里,她确实受到了惊吓,更多的时间只是待在自己的房间里.林语晖很理解她的处境,因为这在中国历史上太多了,新登基的小皇帝被强权环伺.
But Lin Yuhui also perceived another layer to the situation: Liana's generals had likely deliberately assigned no robust security detail for that virtual appearance, intending to draw out hidden threats. This would allow them to strike at internal rebel factions, while simultaneously justifying tighter security for the Queen, making the public of Tayget aware of the hostile threats facing their society, and rallying support for the newly crowned Queen Liana. It was simply something the generals could not tell her outright.
但是林语晖也敏锐地看到了另一个层面,莉安娜的将军们很可能是故意没给她那次虚拟的出行设置有力的随行护卫,来引蛇出洞.这样既能打击内部的反叛势力,还能借机加强女王的保安,让塔吉特公众也知道他们社会面临的敌对危机,从而支持新上任的莉安娜女王.只是将军们不能跟她说这些.
This was precisely why Lin Yuhui had referenced Liana's team and the military at the end of his message. Sure enough, in a subsequent statement, Liana expressed her full trust in and support for the generals and the military. It was as if they were of one mind—Lin Yuhui felt a surge of warmth for the young girl, so relieved she understood.
所以林语晖在他的信息结尾处提到了莉安娜的团队和军方.果然莉安娜随后的发言中表达了她对将军们和军方的信任和支持,真是心有灵犀一点通啊,林语晖很是为这个小女孩儿高兴.