Having let go of the unnecessary distractions, Lin Yuhui's mood became much simpler and calmer. Those sleepless nights could only be made up for slowly.
摒弃了多余的纷扰,林语晖的心情简单而平静了许多,那些失眠的夜晚只能慢慢弥补.
"David, this equipment needs an adjustment," the boss came to Lin Yuhui holding a draft.
"大卫,这个设备需要调整一下,"老板拿着一个草稿找到了林语晖,
But this time it didn't go as smoothly as usual. Lin Yuhui felt his brain wasn't quite sharp, his reactions were sluggish, and even the data entry he was doing kept producing errors.
但是这次并没有像往常一样顺利,林语晖似乎觉得脑子不太灵光,反应迟钝,就连手头输入也频频出错,
"What's wrong, David? You've lost your touch today," Christian asked half-jokingly.
"怎么了大卫?今天你丢了你的水准,"克里斯蒂安半开玩笑地问,
"Ah, why don't you go handle your business first? I'll bring it to you when I'm done."
"啊,要不你先忙你的吧,我弄完了给你送过去,"
"Okay, thanks."
"好的,谢谢,"
Slowing his own pace, after finishing the work and delivering it to the boss, Lin Yuhui gathered his thoughts. He too realized he had been below his standard today. The sleep issues and his heart's blood-supply problems of these past few days had affected his state by the afternoon. As it got close to quitting time, the atmosphere in the office livened up again. Dylan was naturally the most animated, but Lin Yuhui no longer joined in their conversations, letting the words of the people around him, separated by his own silence, fly over his head.
放慢自己的节奏,完成工作给老板送过去之后,林语晖整理了一下思绪,他也意识到了自己今天有失水准,这些天的睡眠问题和自己心脏供血问题,到了下午就影响了自己的状态.快到下班时间的时候,办公室里的气氛又活跃了起来,当然又是迪伦最活跃,但是林语晖不再参与他们的话题了,任凭那些周围被他相隔的人的话语在他的头顶飞过.
After a somewhat groggy afternoon, he finished the day's work and went to the cafeteria to eat as usual. Sitting in a corner, he happened to look up and a petite woman in a yellow-based dress with red flowers caught his attention. Her demeanor was poised, her aura fresh and clean — not at all like the vulgarity of ordinary factory girls, nor like the excessive seductiveness of Cerise. What Lin Yuhui found most intriguing was that the moment he saw her face and hairstyle, they reminded him of the second woman from the three consecutive dreams he'd had before. She seemed to be new — whether she was here temporarily or long-term, he didn't know. But what did that have to do with him anyway? He finished his meal and strolled back to his lodging.
经过略微昏沉的下午,结束了今天的工作,如常到食堂吃完饭.坐在角落里,无意间的抬头,一个身穿黄底色红花连衣裙的娇小女子吸引了她的注意力,举止稳重,气质清新,完全不像普通女工的庸俗,也不像瑟瑞斯过于妖艳,最让林语晖觉得新奇的是见到她的脸庞和发型一瞬间,使他联想到了自己之前连续那三个梦中的第二个女子.似乎她是新来的,不知道是临时到这里工作还是长期的,可是这又和自己有什么关系呢?吃完饭溜溜达达回住处.
In Lin Yuhui's spare time, besides collecting news, he now had a new pastime — his newly purchased violin had arrived. It was a second-hand instrument, with a spliced body, and the wood grain looked quite nice. His rented room was on the fifth floor, and the landlord seemed to live three floors below, so there was no issue of noise disturbance. He rubbed rosin on the bow and tuned the strings, then gave it a try — but the string height seemed a bit too high, and it cut into his fingers.
林语晖的业余时间除了收集新闻信息,现在又有了新的消遣,他新买的小提琴到货了.那是一把二手的琴,拼版的,纹理看起来不错.自己租的房间在五楼,房主似乎居住在三层之下,所以不存在噪音扰民的问题.擦了松香调了弦,他试了试,但是似乎弦高有些高,割手.
In the quiet time that followed, it was the cutting and scraping of wood by the blade of a utility knife. As the peaceful evening hours slipped away, deeper layers of the wood grain revealed themselves in the cutting, like turning through the traces of bygone years. The maple of the bridge, as it was worn smooth, gave off a clean fragrance accumulated over the years, bringing a clarity and calm that pierced the heart — as if one were already standing deep in a tranquil mountain forest.
接下来的平静时间里,就是美工刀钢片与木材的切削与刮磨.随着晚间安逸时间的流逝,更深层的木材花纹在切削中体现,如同翻阅曾经岁月的痕迹,琴码的枫木在消磨中散发出岁月积淀的清香,带给人通透心脾的宁静,仿佛已经处身至于静谧的山林深处.
Putting down what he was doing, Lin Yuhui felt he had enjoyed enough of this for today — any more would just be toil. He got up and stretched his limbs and joints. A wisp of coolness blowing in through the open纱窗 caught his attention.
放下手中的事情,林语晖觉得做这件事的享受今天已经够了,再多就是辛劳了.起身活动一下肢体和关节,敞开的纱窗吹进的一丝清凉吸引了他的注意力.
The night outside had turned completely dark. This was the suburban edge of the county town, with not much municipal lighting. Looking out the window, the dim yellow lights from homes and small shops were the only warmth in the darkness.
窗外的夜色已经彻底黑了下来,这是县城市郊,没有过多的市政照明,望向窗外,住户或者小商户的昏黄灯光就成了黑夜中仅有的温馨.
Looking up at the sky again, it was the rain clouds brought by the typhoon that had blocked the daytime heat and brought the evening coolness. The churning dark clouds here looked different from what Lin Yuhui had seen before — they seemed very low, and silent lightning flickered among the rolling clouds.
再抬头望向天空,是台风带来的雨云遮住了白天的酷热,带来了晚间的清凉,这边的乌云翻滚与林语晖过去见到的不同,看起来高度很低,乌云翻滚之间夹杂着无声的闪电.
The intensifying wind was about to blow the boards stacked on the third-floor balcony and roof of the neighbor across the way right off. A pair of little sisters were busy putting them away. The older sister especially made Lin Yuhui's heart leap — she was actually standing on the wall of the third-floor balcony, pulling down the boards from the roof. One slip and she could fall from the third floor. Were all girls this risk-prone? Or did they just seek thrills? He would definitely tell the landlord tomorrow to have him speak to the adults across the way and teach these kids some safety awareness.
渐强的狂风把对面邻居三楼阳台,屋顶堆放的板材吹得快要起飞了,一对小姐妹正在忙着收纳它们,那个姐姐更是让林语晖看得心惊肉跳,她居然站在三楼阳台的墙垣上,从房顶撤下堆放的板材,一旦失足就有从三楼跌落的风险.难道女生都是这样的风险偏好吗?或者是喜欢寻求刺激?明天一定要说给房东,让他告诉对面邻居的大人好好教育一下这些孩子们的安全意识.
The next morning, Lin Yuhui focused only on his own world in the office. After finishing the work at hand, he discovered a line of evaluation from the boss in his email: "Your work is useless."
新的一天早晨,林语晖在办公室里只专注于自己世界里的事情.完成手头工作之后他发现来自老板的邮件之中对自己的一句评价,"你的工作无用."
Lin Yuhui was instantly indignant. If it was going to be like this from the start, how could he possibly keep going at this company in the days ahead? Constantly being disparaged and manipulated? He wasn't that kind of person. Even though he had been unemployed for years, if he had to eat this rice on his knees — could he really endure it?
林语晖顿时不满,如果刚开始就这样子,那么以后的日子在这家公司还能怎么做呢?被不断地诋毁拿捏?自己不是那样的人,虽然自己已经失业好多年了,如果要跪着吃这碗饭,自己能忍吗?
Lin Yuhui's thoughts churned. He knew deeply that the courage not to kneel didn't come from whining, nor from putting on a show of strength — it came from truly having the courage to let go, whether in finding a job or finding a partner. Lin Yuhui hesitated for a moment, then finally decided to take this step. But how to take that first step? He knew in his heart.
林语晖的思绪翻腾,他深知不跪的勇气不是来自于唧唧歪歪,也不是来自于虚张声势,而是真的有放下的勇气,不论是找工作还是找对象.林语晖迟疑了一会儿,最终决定迈出这一步,但是这第一步怎么迈呢?他心里清楚,
Only to see Lin Yuhui slam his mouse down on the desk with a bang and blurt out casually,
只见林语晖啪一声把鼠标往桌上一摔,随口说了一句,
"If this job can't be done, then I won't do it."
"这工作干不了就不干了,"
Dylan beside him caught the vibe instantly and leaned right in, his bulbous nose almost touching Lin Yuhui's face.
旁边的迪伦闻到这股气息立刻就凑上来了,蒜头鼻子都快顶到林语晖的脸上了,
"David, what's up?"
"大卫咋地了?"
Lin Yuhui knew that Dylan had always been dissatisfied with his own position — for financial reasons or other reasons. He had even once wanted to learn CAD from Lin Yuhui to gain some skills so he'd have more confidence to jump ship. But Lin Yuhui knew clearly that Dylan had no real personal advantages, and had talked him out of it. Now that he himself had this inclination, he knew Dylan would butt in like he'd been injected with chicken blood.
林语晖知道他平时就对自己的岗位不太满意,钱的原因或者其他原因,还曾经想和林语晖学CAD长点本事好更有信心跳槽,但是林语晖清楚迪伦并没有什么个人优势,把他劝住了.现在自己有了这个倾向,就知道他也会打鸡血一样地掺和.
Lin Yuhui pulled his chair back to make room, pointed at the screen and said petulantly,
林语晖把自己座椅往后一拉,让出空间,指着屏幕赌气说,
"Look, the boss says I'm useless. What's the point of me still working? If it won't work, I'll just quit." After saying that, he stood up indignantly and went to stand in front of the floor-to-ceiling window, facing the wall, staring at the scenery.
"你看,老板说我没用,那我还干个啥劲,不行就不干了,"说完就愤然起身,站到落地窗前面壁看风景了.
From the corner of his eye, he could only see Dylan dragging his chair up to the screen, staring at it with the utmost care.
余光只见迪伦拉着椅子凑到屏幕前看得那叫一个仔细,
Lin Yuhui vented his anger facing the glass for a while, figuring Stephanie had probably already sent the news straight to the boss. Only then did he return to his seat and reply to the boss's email with a few cold words: "Need to talk."
林语晖面对玻璃窗运了一会儿气,估计斯蒂芬妮有可能已经直接把消息发过去给老板了.这才回到座位上,给老板回了邮件,冷冰冰几个字,"需要谈谈,."
Before long, the boss's wife came first, saying pleasantly,
没过多久老板娘先来了,和颜悦色地说,
"David, don't worry, the boss will be here soon."
"大卫别着急,老板一会就到,"
Lin Yuhui quickly stood up and said with a smile,
林语晖急忙起身陪着笑说,
"Okay, no rush. Go ahead with your work, I'm fine." As the saying goes, you don't hit someone who's smiling at you — especially when that someone is a woman.
"好的,不着急,你忙你的吧,我没什么事."俗话说抬手不打笑脸人,何况对方还是女人,
Sitting in his seat, not long after, the boss arrived too. Lin Yuhui glanced at him as he walked past the window — his face full of trouble.
坐在自己的座位上,没过多久,老板也到了,从窗外走过林语晖瞟了一眼,满脸官司.
"David, do you have something to talk to me about? Are you free now?"
"大卫你是有话和我谈吗?你现在有时间吗?"
"Yes, preferably now." Lin Yuhui stood up to answer, but his expression and tone were ice-cold.
"是的,最好现在,"林语晖起身回答,但是表情和语气冰冷,
"Alright then, let me tidy up the office. I'll call you when I'm ready."
"那好,我收拾一下办公室,好了就叫你."
After a while, he came to the boss's office, sat down, and seeing that the boss showed no sign of speaking first, Lin Yuhui got straight to the point.
过了一会儿,来到老板办公室,落座,见老板没有开口的意思,林语晖开门见山,
"If my work has no value, then I should leave." His voice was low and steady, his expression dark.
"如果我的工作没有价值,那我就因该离开了,"语气低沉平缓,面色阴沉,
"Why do you want to leave?" Christian asked, somewhat confused.
"为什么你要离开?"克里斯蒂安有些不解地问?
"You said it — my work has no value. So what's the point of me staying here?"
"你说的,我的工作没有价值,那我留在这里还有什么用呢?"
"When did I ever say your work has no value?"
"我什么时候说过你的工作没有价值?"
"The email you sent me." After saying that, seeing Christian turn to check his computer screen, Lin Yuhui also stood up and pointed it out to him.
"你发给我的邮件,"说完,见克里斯蒂安转身查看自己的电脑屏幕,林语晖见状也起身指给他看.
Just as Lin Yuhui's gaze swept across the email list, a memory suddenly flashed in his mind — he had received an email from the boss before. That project had been cancelled, yet he had still gone ahead and finished it according to the original plan. It was as if his brain had rusted over.
就在林语晖的视线扫过邮件列表的时候,他的脑海里突然回忆起之前他收到过老板的邮件,那个项目取消了,而他自己依旧依照之前的计划做完了,似乎自己的脑子生锈了一样.
So the boss's reply email was correct — he had indeed done useless work. This was a misunderstanding.
所以老板回的邮件说的没错,确实自己做了无用功,这是一个误会.
(by wenxing5.1)