MAHIRA
Elena fell asleep in my arms. I couldn't imagine what she had gone through the past 11 months.
I kissed her head and caressed her cheeks.
What have they done to you baby?
I should have found her earlier, I should have protected her, I should have protected all of them,
if only I had kept them all away, if only I could have left my family and cut ties with them they
would be alive and Elena would have been safe in the comfort of our home.
I could have protected her.
I should have stayed away from Thane from the very beginning, I should have never gotten so
close to her, this happened because of me.
I'm sorry baby. I'm so sorry.
I feel so guilty. If I had left when Thane gave me the chance then Elena wouldn't have lost her
innocence or experienced that trauma.
I got off the bed ensuring that I didn't move her too much and then I laid her on the bed and
pulled the hospital blanket over her.
I called in a doctor to examine her and she told me that she suffered from an eating disorder
and a couple of other things. She said she would file a report on her health.
Adamsen got me discharged from the hospital. Elena had not woken up for about 3 hour's. I
needed to talk to Thane before making my decision.
I don't know why I was even submitting to him but since he's still my husband I can't betray him
like that. He deserves to know. I found Thane in the male bathroom. I was impatient so I just got
inside and found him washing his hands.
'Thane we need to talk.'
Thane just looked at me coldly and pushed me aside. I quickly closed the bathroom and stood
at the door to prevent him from leaving.
'What do you want bitch? Get out of my way.'
'Stop fuckin avoiding me! This is about Elena not you so stop being so full of yourself and
selfish. When Elena came, when you saw her did you bother to hug your sister.' Thane laughed sarcastically.
'What are you trying to imply that you love my sister more than me?'
'What if I say yes? What if I love her more than you because you seem to be fuckin obsessed
with ruining me that you forgot about this little kid's fucking feelings. How many times did I fuckin
tell you that Elena was alive huh?'
Thane suddenly grabbed my neck which made me gasp for oxygen.
'You don't love my sister. You are a venomous snake. Just because you were with her for a
while doesn't mean you love her okay. I'm her only family, not you. Don't fuckin fool yourself.'
He let me go and I fell on the ground. My vision seemed to fail me a bit but after blinking a
couple of times it was clear again. He didn't even consider that I was hospitalized a while ago.
'Thane, I don't know how my sons are keeping. For fuck sake please Thane help me find our
son's, if I get help from another man then I will have to have sex with him. Thane I don't want to
get fucked by someone else whilst you are alive. You can help me, Thane please unfreeze my
accounts. Put your ego aside and think about our children.'
I kneeled down before him hoping he'd have a change of heart. I didn't want to be with
Adamsen and I just hoped that Thane would stop being so cruel and help me for their sake. He
made me stand up by pulling my hair.
'Ooh, so you are using your son's to get what you want. Is the pleasure I give you not enough
huh? I can't believe you are such a whore.'
'Thane... please leave my... hair it's hurting don't pull me like that... Please, it really hurts.'
Thane pulled me out of the bathroom by hand. He dragged me out of the bathroom. I kept
pleading with him to let me go and I tried to free myself but his grip on my hand was so strong.
Adamsen came out of nowhere and stood in Thane's path.
'The lady has been asking and begging you to let her go. Leave her hand!'
Thane chuckled sarcastically.
'Or what lover boy, what are you going to do? Listen here lover boy just because you slept with
my wife once it doesn't mean you can not interfere anytime.'
Before I could even realize what was going on Adamsen had a gun in his hand and it was aimed
at Thane. Like what the heck, if Adamsen has a gun then of course he's capable of killing Thane
without giving it a second thought.
'Adam... Adam please don't shoot him... please I'm begging you please for my sake don't hurt
him.'
I started crying and that's when Adamsen put the gun back. Thane's grip on me had loosened a
bit so I took advantage of that and ran away.
It was snowing heavily outside but I still kept running until I stopped in front of an abandoned
building and went inside. This was the kind of building I would never dare to enter, but who the
fuck am I kidding was I even in the right state to even consider what could be in this building,
be it a ghost or goblin.
I ran up the stairs until I got to the roof. I fell on her knees and started crying with the snow
filtering my hair. Suddenly a voice of a little girl dressed in a white gown called me.
'Mahi.'
'Who's there? Who's calling me?'
'Mahi come on, follow me Mahi common, let's play a game Mahhi, follow me Mahi.'
I stood up and followed the girl. The girl stopped at the railing and stood on the railings. 'Mahi come on, come up Mahi, climb this railing Mahi, come Mahi, you can do it Mahi.'
I followed the instructions of the little girl. I climbed the railing.
'Jump Mahi, jump, Mahi, jump Mahi.'
I got down and held her head which was hurting so bad it felt like it would burst open.
'No!!!'
'What's wrong Mahi? Come with me, you are in pain Mahi. Come.'
'No, I don't want to die, stop telling me to jump. I have to find my children. I can't die yet, don't
do that, please go away.'
I cried even more because she wouldn't go away. I shut my ears and closed my eyes hoping
she would disappear and I wouldn't hear her voice anymore but I could still hear her.
'Mahi you want your son's right? Mahi, come on, jump Mahi, you will be at peace, all your
problems will fade, your soul will be at peace, no more abuse, no more tear's, no more suffering,
come Mahi, I'm trying to help you.'
I believed her, in fact she's right. If I die all the pain, the bad memories, the guilt, the regret, it will
all go away. I walked towards her and she gave me her hand, she was real, her hand was real, I
got on the railing.
I will be free. It'll all end.
I was ready to jump off but then a hand pulled me off and I fell onto the beholder of the hand. It
was Adamsen, I don't know when he came or how he even found me. He held me tight, locking
me in his embrace. I cried even more as I buried my face in his chest.
'I can't do this anymore. I want to die. The little girl promised me that all my pain would end after
I jumped off the railing. I want to die. What do I have left? Nothing. I have nothing.'
Adamsen hugged me even tighter.
'You have me Mahi. You have me. I'll help you find your children.'
I passed out in his arms.
I found myself in the hospital again when I woke up. Adamsen was sitting on the chair next to
my bed and no one else was in the room.
If I die the least I can do is find my children and if Thane doesn't want to help me with that it's
okay I will do it myself
'Adamsen... I'm willing to be your fuck buddy for one year if you find my kids.'
'You're not doing well Mahira, just take your time.'
'I want my kids Adam. Please.'
'Okay hottie, you just have to sign a few documents.'
'I'll sign whatever you need me to just find my son's.'
He brought in some documents and I signed them without reading them. He found Elena so he
will find my kids. I can trust that and I will be free from Thane, or at least I hope so.