Julie.
The restaurant was a dim lit one,a violinist played softly and waiters moved silently amongst tables .
We were ushered to our table , I clung so close to Rose .
We sat down on our table , it was private just the two of us.
The waiter took our order .
Once the food arrived, we feasted on it .
" I guess you're hungry " Rose teased, with her mouth stuffed.
I giggled.
We finished eating, the waiter came and cleared the table then brought us wine , Rose dismissed the waiter and poured me a drink her self and filled her glass as well .
I thanked her and smiled.
We spoke about childhood memories,
Favorite books
Embarrassing moments
Dream vacations
We laughed.
I noticed she never mentioned about her parents, she mostly talked about her grand ma, who is late already.
She is the only child, I guess she had a lonely childhood. No one can have it all .
I took a sip of wine and placed my glass down .
"Rose.." I called
"Yes " she answered with a smile
" what exactly are we doing ?"
Rose's smile faded into something more vulnerable.
"I've been asking myself the same question."
She says and lowered her eyes .
" The night we kissed " she said softly
I nodded
" I haven't stopped thinking about it "
She hesitated, then continued.
" I didn't mean to do that unexpected, my emotions took control over me "
She says with guilt written all over her face .
" I'm not any better , because I also haven't stopped thinking about it too."
I say , and she looked up at me .
"I've never felt this way before , especially for my fellow woman "
I explained, and Rose reached across the table.
She didn't grab my hand like I expected, maybe she was too nervous.
Our fingertips brushed slightly.
"You don't have to explain it " she says .
"I'm scared" I say lowering my gaze.
She lifted my chin up to look at her .
"Scared of what ?"
" me?"
"No"
" of how much I like you " I say.
I could feel my cheeks heating up.
I was both shy and embarrassed.
"I thought I was the one terrified "she says, and giggles for a bit .
" you ?" I opened my eyes wide in a funny way .
" I know I face boardrooms"
" I negotiate million-dollar deals ."
" I'm in control of the company, I'm your boss I know "
" but you make me nervous " she says with flushed cheeks.
I reached out and and held her hands in mine , I could feel how tensed she was.
I laughed softly
" I didn't expect that "
A moment of silence passed.
Then Rose spoke .
" if we chose this …" she clutched my hands tight, and searched my face .
" …. we won't be pretending."she says.
I nodded.
" I know it won't be easy "
" people might judge us "
She takes a deep breath
And I watched her .
" I know " I say .
"So…" she smiled.
" So, I'll rather face all that with you than spend another day , pretending I don't feel this " I say looking her in the eyes .
Her eyes softened.
"So would you like to be mine ?" She asked with hopeful eyes.
" my answer is yes " I replied grinning from ear to ear .
She squeezed my hands gently and looked at me before adding softly.
" Then let this be our real first date "
I smiled uncontrollably.