Chapter 192 Hesitation and Choice
Not long after, Xiao Feng also left the hall.
As the main objective of this banquet, Xiao Feng's departure naturally marked its end, and soon the banquet came to a complete close.
Overall, the banquet had a very good effect. First of all, Xiao Feng kept his promise and did not end up in a situation where he went to great lengths to host the banquet, only to find that the person in charge did not show up. That was the first point.
Secondly, most of the people attending the banquet have achieved their goals. First, the Mu family, who suffered the most, has gained Xiao Feng's forgiveness and successfully resolved their life-or-death crisis. Second, the royal family and the Nalan family and other powerful families have become acquainted with Xiao Feng, which has laid a good foundation for future contact. Overall, everything is perfect!
That night, Xiao Feng sat quietly in the courtyard, looking up at the sky and gazing at the countless stars. At that moment, his eyes no longer held the pride and indifference of before; instead, they were filled with hesitation and entanglement, as if a huge problem lay before him.
"Phew—" With a long sigh, Xiao Feng finally withdrew his gaze. He began to reflect on himself and question his own heart—"Do I really want to do this? Is what I'm doing really right?"
"To say that I have any feelings for Yun Yun is naturally impossible. We've only just met. All of this is simply because of Yun Yun's appearance, or to be more precise, it's entirely because I was lustful at first sight!"
"However, for Yun Yun, she may not know him well, or it may be the first time they have met. But for me, I already knew her in my previous life, and even had feelings for her in my previous life. Of course, it is undeniable that most of this is still due to the current Yun Yun."
"But to say that I should give up is really hard to accept. Whether it's because of my feelings for Yun Yun in my past life or her stunning beauty now, she makes my heart flutter! At least she is one of only two women who can make my eyes light up and my heart flutter. Just that alone surpasses countless other women."
"But if we're really talking about feelings, we've only just met. How could there be so many feelings between us? How could I possibly make her my woman, my wife?"
Thinking of this, Xiao Feng couldn't help but sigh, gazing wistfully at the sky, lost in thought.
Before, Xiao Feng would never have imagined that he would face such a situation or encounter such a thing. However, after listening to Yao Chen's story, his mind had changed. He realized that his feelings for Medusa were inappropriate, and that his choice in this relationship was wrong.
But by the time they discovered all this, it was too late. He had already gone to such lengths that it was irreversible, so they could only continue down the wrong path. Or perhaps the bigger reason was Medusa, because Xiao Feng refused to let go.
Only tonight, as Xiao Feng recalled everything that had happened that day, did he realize he had acted impulsively. He shouldn't have done that. He and Yun Yun had only met for the first time, and there was absolutely no affection between them! So what else could there be?
Besides, Xiao Feng already has a Medusa by his side, and he hasn't even managed to win her over yet. Now he has another target, which is somewhat despicable.
It was precisely because of these reasons that Xiao Feng was caught in a dilemma. He didn't know what to do, and he was even more unsure how to face his own thoughts and desires. Should he confront these thoughts and desires and follow his heart, or were these thoughts and desires undesirable and should be restrained?
After a long while, he sighed softly and said, "Forget it, forget it. Why am I thinking so much here? There's not even a hint of anything between me and Yunyun yet, let alone Yunyun herself! I don't even know what she's thinking!"
"Being conflicted is truly the most painful thing." Although he said he shouldn't think too much, could things really turn out the way Xiao Feng thought?
Xiao Feng's heart was always restless. He didn't know why, but whenever he closed his eyes, Yun Yun's voice and smile would appear in his mind. Her every smile and frown; her exquisite beauty; her voluptuous figure and elegant demeanor—all of these were drawing Xiao Feng's heart in. Xiao Feng was intoxicated! He had to admit Yun Yun's charm, and even more so, he had to admit the allure she held for him!
A young man's heart is like a midsummer night's wilderness, endless and inexhaustible, where a long wind blows and the wild grass stretches to the sky.
Although Xiao Feng is no longer a boy in terms of age, love and being moved are just like a boy's for him!
Suddenly, Xiao Feng remembered a move he knew well from his previous life, something he had done countless times. He saw his fighting spirit surge in his hand, gradually condensing into a round object. Different marks were engraved on the front and back of this object, which was how he distinguished the front and back.
That's right, this is the appearance of currency that Xiao Feng was familiar with in his previous life, and this so-called event is the widely circulated "coin toss." "Coin tossing" can be seen as an entertainment activity, and it can also provide help to people who are in the process of making difficult choices. Of course, whether it is effective or not is a matter of opinion.
In truth, Xiao Feng didn't really believe in this matter either. After all, entrusting one's choices and even one's fate to a small coin, to the ethereal forces of luck and destiny, was undoubtedly a very inappropriate act. But for some reason, he suddenly thought of this matter and couldn't help but want to try it. Perhaps from the very beginning, what he wanted was not an outcome, but peace of mind.
After carefully examining the "coin" formed from battle qi in his hand, Xiao Feng made up his mind: "If it's heads, then I'll stick to my ideas and my heart, and give it a try. Even if I fail, it'll be a test of my abilities, and I'll have no regrets. If it's tails, then I'll let go."
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