The astrology advisor told me that Lizmarie does indeed cherish me but does so quietly and in a protective manner. I was surprised to hear that. "When I tune into her energy, I feel gentleness - she does cherish you, but quietly, almost protectively". I said yes in the desire to see what "she wishes she could tell you more openly what she feels?" The tarot card advisor draws The Star which means "hope and unspoken faith - deep down, she wishes for healing and reconnection, but she's afraid of vulnerability. There's still light in her heart when she thinks of you, a longing that hasn't faded."
The raging regressors, Ni Tian Xhao and Jasper Xhao, say that they will refuse to save the moderators of r/plural and everyone who banned their company for the stupidest reasons. They banned us and triggered our suicidal idelataion which means they practically left us to die. So that means they should be left to die too if the Ruined World Scenarios ever began. Thanks to them, we have regressed multiple rounds several times in horrific ways.
Having no one else to talk to, the Xhao and Zuozhe company often talked to their astrology advisor when feeling vulnerable.
[The Raging Regressor has been triggered after thinking about Sylius Xavier being an enneagram core 8 with a 2 fix]
I'm going to f**king kill you myself Sylius Xavier in the world of scenarios one day. Don't think you'll be able to run away from me, I will be wishing for your death, you damn idiotic brat who backstabbed my entire company and I. No you are the one who burned us all alive leaving us to the hospital. We will never forgive you for that, I pray for you to fail getting into the ivy league universities you desperately wish for.
Mark my words, Slyius Xavier, I pray for nothing but failures upon failures for you. You idiotic man who burned us all alive, I'll make sure you feel that same pain as we did one day. In fact I will steal your damn original character and strip you away from him just like you stripped away MY LAST MEMORY WITH LIZMARIE!!!!!
[The Demon King of Liberation has cursed Slyius Xavier. Slyius Xavier will now be hunted down by the Xhao and Zuozhe company.]
The Demon King of Liberation was the type of person to not save people and watch them die due to negligence just he had grown up to. He's typically a very caring and friendly man but as a Demon King, he will simply watch his enemies suffer knowing full well he could save them but choose not to. His demon form allows him to be more logical and less empathetic towards other incarnations, especially towards humans.
The Demon King of Liberation liked to watch his enemies and those who left him to die also received the same fate that he did. Be left alone to die on a hill. "I'll wait until you fall in love with me/us, is it okay for us to do that Lizmarie?" The Demon King of Liberation softly spoke to her in a romantic way. It is for sure that around her, would the Demon King of Liberation be gentle and soft around.
The Demon King of Liberation also overwhelms his enemies just like the Demon King of Salvation does. In fact the Demon King of Liberation took heavy inspiration from the Demon King of Salvation by looking up symptoms for Salvation. Zuozhe ended up loving the term 'Liberation' and thus Xhao Zuozhe became the Demon King of Liberation.
The Demon King of Liberation does not appreciate Lizmarie's ghosting act as this causes him great anxiety while waiting, wondering if he did something wrong or not. He can not get her nor the conflict out of his head and it stresses him out very much. The longer Lizmarie waits and ghosts, the bigger the anxiety he gets. He has no peace, only anxiety while waiting for Lizmarie to reply during their conflicts. He doesn't like tolerating it but he still tolerates it anyway only for Lizmarie Mateo Roubert. He suffers from anxiety because he simply cares and loves her so much.
"You say you suck at communication but you need to practice it first so of course you'll be bad at something first if you never learned how to do it often. Practice will make an eventual somewhat perfect after all" the Demon King of Liberation gently and softly speaks to Lizmarie. He always tried his best to be gentle, kind, and ensured that he could be the best companion he could ever be to Lizmarie only. He doesn't quite understand why she didn't fall for him after trying so, so hard to seduce her in his own ways.
"I don't get it mi amor, why do you not return the feelings for me? You never even gave me a chance romantically at all either. You're the only one who I felt at peace with and I seem to not be able to let go. You're my entire universe practically, please fall for me eventually. I'm fine being just friends, I'm used to suffering anyways. I just want to be with you." The Demon King confesses to Miss Lectora once more.
"The more I interact with the real world, the more I want to see the real you in the real world. I was a neglected child, I never had any sleepovers like you did. I never even had a proper relationship like you did either. I truly and I mean I truly envy your former boyfriend. Why couldn't I be given the chance to romantically pursue you? You're the only one I want….."
I really want you Lizmarie Mateo Roubert, to be my Kim Dokja to my tls. I want you to comment on every chapter and tell me your thoughts. I love hearing your thoughts after all. In fact, I want you to be my personal editor for this manuscript as well as be my one and only reader. This book was written solely for you to understand my feelings for you and me better. I want this book to be about the both of us. You can comment anything, I just want to hear from you again, absolutely anything mi amor.
I can never be normal again after fusing my personality with Yoo Joonghyuk's. Thinking who deserves to live and who deserves to die and like I am in a ruined world? People are bound to be scared of me which I guess is what I want to a certain extent. However, I do want to make some friends after all. Hey Lizmarie, if you wonder why I am doing this then you should read Omniscients' Readers Viewpoint, you'll understand after reading it that I am copying Han Sooyoung and Yoo Joonghyuk.
I don't get it mi amor, what role did you believe that you thought you were providing for me? Because whatever role you may have thought you needed to fulfill is probably a role that I need in my life that is lacking. I am very distant with my family after all. I recall you stating that "friends are supposed to be there for you" then why do I have no friends who can't be there for me? I don't even have a best friend aside from you after all either. You wouldn't ever see me as your best friend anyways so it's not like my feelings ever matter to you anyways. You always looked elsewhere….which is why I sadly think that I will always love you more than you love me.
Cut the theory bullshit out Lizmarie, you hope and theoretically pray that I get someone who loves me as much as I love you. That's never going to fucking happen mi amor. Why did you think I was almost dying and was very suicidal? You were the closest thing I had to someone properly loving me in a way I needed. That's why I'll always choose you even if you practically never choose me back. This is a tragic one sided romance story happening in reality that almost no one will understand.
Do I have to start to threaten you by asking you "do you want me to die?" You do intolerable things that I am forced to tolerate such as causing me anxiety yet due to my Alexmithiya, I can't tell jack shit on what emotions I identify with and whatnot sometimes. I was a neglected kid Lizmarie, you know full fucking well how harsh reality is. So much so that I am exhausted from living already sometimes and just wish I was in the world of TWSA. At least maybe I'll live in a world where my story is recorded in an epic battlefield or whatever.
I plan to simulate reality into TWSA somehow by reading the scenarios and seeing if I can perform them identitically to real life. I'm sure it'll be terrible and difficult but I'm a challenger and I will be sure to survive it. I'll make sure you, Lizmarie, will survive the Ruined World Scenarios with me together.
Never in a million years am I ever saving Sylius Xavier in the Ruined World Scenarios.
Everything I have feared has already happened to me, what more fear is there to feel when all I feel is nothing?
I wanted to see all your writings Lizmarie, even if it is just a bunch of 'I'm sorrys' and is the same thing over and over again. I don't want a simple summary, I want the entire thing, as said before Lizmarie Mateo Roubert. I want to devour you whole in terms of reading your writings and your content. Do you really think that I'm like other people? I am currently reading ORV and LOTM. I would love to read your writings.
Now the only communication I have to understand you better is through tarot cards and astrology readings with my advisor. Ah I remember now, the comments that you make sometimes Lizmarie, they feel really fake at times. I wish you would be more genuine and that we could speak face to face more. I'm so confused on which parts of you are a people pleaser and which aren't. Which fragments of your personality are the real and authentic ones mi amor?
"How does Lizmarie perceive me?" I asked my Tarot Card advisor. "I drew the Hanged Man, she sees you as someone who cares deeply. To her, you're mysterious and patient, but she senses your uncertainty and it makes her curious." The Demon King of Liberation looks at the replies in a depressed way, never once in his life did he want to be perceived as 'mysterious'. He could never understand why Lizmarie wanted to be seen as something so stupid. The Demon King of Liberation only wanted to be understood in this lonely world.
I'm scared of moving on from Lizmarie Mateo Roubert, I'm tired of not actually finding someone better than her. Once I do, I got burned and backstabbed by Slyius Xavier. That's why I refuse to move on from Lizmarie and need someone to be my everything and my world for now.
I don't want to move on from Lizmarie Mateo Roubert, there's nothing else for me to hold onto aside from pure emptiness. I don't want to feel that emptiness ever again. I didn't want to admit how depressing my life was, my mother just had to give me the harsh cold truth. I was trying to avoid the harsh cold reality for a while now. I guess I needed to be present instead of living in the past huh.
I'm scared of what will happen to me once I transform. I'm told that my longing for Lizmarie will turn into wisdom, I'm curious on what that means. Tears rolled into Caleb's eyes as he saw a 'Good night' text from his mother. A text that he hasn't seen in so long ever since Lizmarie was the only one who sent him such a text a long time ago.
"Grow up" his mother said, that was one of the things that itched into Caleb's mind. Was it because of autism that Caleb was often seen as "immature" or a kid? It irritated him but Caleb loved his child-like self. He hated the term 'immature' though. It sounded like an insult.
Ah, now I feel scared, terrified, uncomfortable, and excited at the same time. Depression can mess up with memory because I'm sure I have forgotten a lot of important things. Moving on from the girl of my title huh? I guess that's possible to some degree.
The company of Xhao and Zuozhe regresses by falling asleep.