In the depths of the hills and cold of the night, Mikhail sat outside on a chair looking up at the night sky and stars above in the dark...
Just leaving work, his white button up uniform shirt was all unbuttoned and out of his pants..
Trying to breath slowly as he takes his time trying to hold back his tears within his eyes he slowly felt something starting to break form within his heart...
Looking at the night sky Mikhail plead his heart out...
" Hi God... It's me again... Sorry.... I'm not really in a good shape..
Kinda screwed up again.... Heh honestly I feel like I'm really loosing her... Lorelei.... If I haven't already....
Saddest thing about it I can't do anything to change or fix it no matter how hard I try...
It's my fault really, so I have to face the consequences of my actions..
However.... This feeling of her drifting away from me hurts more than anything I could remember....
Though lord if this is the end... The path where Lorelei and I walk together really shall come to a end...
Please don't let it hurt too much for her.... Give me the pain... All of it...
Guide and keep her safe and give her joy where ever her path leads her.. weather I am the one who will be by her side or not...
Give her protection and longevity... Health and strength...
Give her wisdom and intellect...
And most of all, Give her love... She is deserving of it...
That's all I ask for...
So as we continue walking our journey separated or not... Just always do that for her..
I love her lord... And I know she is deserving of such blessings... So please hear me out...
As for me... It seem love was never something I was really cut out for...
Over and over and over again and yet I've ended up in the same results...
Hurting those I care about and hurting my own self in the process....
I think maybe this time I've seen the message this universe been trying to tell me and what I have been running away from all this time...
Deluding myself with a dream where I have a happy ending...
I'm awake now... And I know my fate now... It isn't a happy ending... Not for someone like me...
My destination seem to be where solitude and absolute darkness reside... A place void of light and cold as ice.. no light... No warmth...
If that truly is thy fate... I will walk it willingly.... If that truly my path...
Just all I ask... Take care of Lorelei... And those I care about deeply as well... Keep them and her and guide them down the right path..
Please... In your name, all the gods that serves under you names, and your son names... "
As Mikhail ended his conversation/prayer with the being that exists in the endless universe... He leans back and took out a handkerchief from his back pocket and covers his face as he listen to the night...
" Interesting.... I must really am in love with her... For a demon like me choosing to pray so often..."