Jay's PoV
In the early morning I got a call from Sara asking for me to come, So I decided to, initially I did not want to wake Keifer up first but he did woke up so I informed him and told him that I will take his car,
I was a in hurry to reach to Sara because I do have to get back in time for office,
After helping her and I came back to the car and finally settled and that's when I noticed some files, At first I thought maybe it was for the office, then only I saw the label it was like a clinic, I know I shouldn't do this but I opened it and it revealed what Keifer's been hiding from me, that he is suffering from insomnia and has been going to the doctors for 7 years, the time we spent apart, I did not realise how much it has affected to go through all this, but I just asked him not keep any secrets from me if we are going to be living together, so why would he do that
Jay: "What is this?" I asked lifting the report
Jay: "So, I was not in your life and you decide to not to take care of yourself?"
Keifer: "Jay it's not like that"
Jay: "Then how it is explain "
Keifer: "When I lost you I lost someone whom I confide, I lost someone I love, I felt like I betrayed you when you needed me the most and It killed me every living second and the last I was bothered about my health, you can into my life and took care of me and expected nothing in return, while I had no one else doing that for me"
Jay: "Then why did you hide it from me?"
Keifer: "Jay it not like I wanted to hide it from you, I just"
Jay: "You didn't feel safe to say it me or thought maybe I couldn't handle, you know whatever the reason might be, I don't think its healthy, I mean what kind of relationship so we even have, If you are not able to even tell me what is going on unless I have to accidently find it, I mean would have hid forever from me?"
I know I was lashing out at him but I was hurt thinking that he wouldn't come to me if he was facing or going through something, I mean he is always there for me when I need him, why can't he expect the same from me
Jay: " You hid it from even after I told you I don't want secret between us especially since we are going to be living together .I think I need sometime alone to process this" I said this
Keifer: "Jay please." He said in a lower tone
and went out for a minute and all I could see was his face with tears and I couldn't handle it I went back in, only to see him on his knees and still crying on the same space and I ran to him and get down on my knees and hugged him
Jay: "I am sorry I walked out on you. I shouldn't have done that"
He puts his head on my shoulder and finally break down of the holding all the things, I put my hand on his head and held me tightly to let him know that I will always be there for him,
Jay: "I am sorry for what I said, I only thought from my perspective and maybe I was mad at myself because I am one of the reason why you suffered and It hurts me that I did not notice it and thought you were happy but did not realise what you were going through and did not think what you have been going through"
he pulls a little and I cup his face and he holds my hand which was cupping his face starts speaking in his trembling voice because of the crying,
Keifer: "No Jay, I am sorry for what I did, I did not mean to hide it from you, that day when you said, that night when you told what you went through and did not want secret between, I was thorn between wanting to tell you everything and at the same time your condition was worst, I saw the pain that was in your eyes, so I decided to go against it and decided not to tell you anything, because for whatsoever reason I did not want you to go through any kind of emotional distress because of me, So I thought maybe if I took therapy and did everything possible I could to make me normal, So I did go to therapy yesterday and it was the meeting I lied about, but that is where the doctor made me realise that I am not causing any harm to our relationship by telling you about insomnia, infact I realised it would a better thing to do If I told you, she told me it would heal better and might be even faster, you know I slept a little early after we started sleeping together "
and places his forehead on mine,
I slowly whisper, Jay: "Then why didn't you tell me?"
Keifer: "Because It was our first day at this of starting our lives together, I wanted to start it on a happy note, I don't want to make you worry on the very first day itself. "
I chuckle and wipe his tears and he does the same for me,
Keifer: "I am sorry Jay"
I nod my head in a no,
Jay: "I am sorry too" I say and hug him tightly and make him rest his head on my shoulder and he held him tighter because I know this is what he needs right now, me, Us.
Honestly this what I need to Us.
I whisper again, "I love you Keif"
and kiss him on his side of head, while being in the hug.
I realised one thing, no matter what happens, Keifer and I will always find our way back to each other, I mean that's how it is with us, no matter what the problem, it is not bigger than Us! It's always going to be us over anything!🤍
Author's Note:
Keifer has finally let everything out that he wanted to say🤍😭
Jay just like her safe space became Keifer's❤️
What's going to happen next?
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