I was playing with the bracelet the one Suho gave me, and asking Mr. Moon,
Aren't platinum's the most expensive metal?
He replied with a confusion,
Yes, But do you need anything made with platinum?
I replied sightly,
No.
I left for my room, started to feeling sad which i never felt before, thinking of him,
So Suho really have to leave the city for college.
An unpleasant wind blown through my body. Then I remembered about the room and the key.
I rushed to Mr. Moon and he were noting something on his table. My dispirited face made him questioned.
Mr. Min you okay? You need something?
I replied calmly,
Uncle, Can I get the key of papa's office room?
He is pretty quick witted men, he understood, and in an instant he started to confronting me.
Kim Min Jun, You're dad was the reason for me for being alive until today; neither i were a skeleton in the forest. He saved me and it's my pleasure that today i am serving you, the heir of this clan. But i have to keep the words which i promised to you're dad. I can't give you the key. Its not just a promise it was an order too.
I knew it Mr. Moon is not the person who will gonna come to my words so i was already prepared something,
It's not what you're thinking, i just need my that story book which dad used to read for me whenever my heart ached.
He stared at me with a patched up suspicious eyes. But i made him gave it to me but the condition was, he will be with me there. I agreed and we reached there.
He opened the room, Huge entrance, so delicately organized. Tons of chemical stocks, wine tubs and more than thousands of bookshelves. It was so big that my eye alone couldn't fit to put everywhere, like the room itself is double of our living squares.
Mr. Moon took me at papa's table and told me to find if its at the drawer. I just kept hoping for finding something in there and for my good luck i found something. A contract looking paper, and i covered it with that book as taking them with me. We left immediately like there were some snakes waiting for biting us. I thanked him and left for my room.
And for God's sake those were written in Hebrew, I copied those on my laptop and waited for getting it translated then suddenly call of evil, Mr. Moon knocked the door.
I opened the door with a tense looking face and as my thought he asked,
Did you mistakenly took any paper with that book from that drawer?
I said instantly putting my calm mind forward,
Yeah i did and it looks pretty weird I can't even read them, sorry here it is.
As he took it from me with a skeptical stare. He gave me an evil smirk and left. And i rushed to my laptop and started to scrolling, but everything was getting blurred as more i was reading. I dont remember any of them now but after a while i seen two weird guys. I never seen any creature like them, like a human feature but like two shadow's, so tall that i couldn't look enough, so creepy with hoods. My one hand is burning so my room too. And everything gotten dark.
I woke up, and found myself at a study table. This is ... it was so clear that everything felt so true and then that diary where that rhyme written. I read it again unknowingly tears wetted my eyes that i barely could read it.
Then an unwanted vision came throw my mind, someone's blood in my hand and a body with countless of arrow shots in with pain. Before I reached in front, to touch the body, its started to blend in air being ashes. I am screaming as my voice out loudly like my heart is slaying by goblins blade.
I rushed through the washroom and seen my nose bleeding continuously. I barely could stopped it, also. My head started to paining like crazy, like a chainsaw is cutting through my eyes and back. I hardly made it out from washroom and managed to go to bed, though it was already morning. After a while my eyes sticked closed, i drifted in sleep.
There again, a clear dream i seen like i was living the moment. And this one is completely a different one.
Where I lost Suho.
The clear vision of me, the annual program held a tour for us after the graduation. Him and I, seated in the bus and suddenly that crash... my eyes closed for a bit and when i opened, there he was. My friend Suho, over me. The window's broken stick stabbed on his back. I screamed for help. I kept dragging him out but then he said,
Min Jun-a, I cant breath. Is it all over for me.
I kept screaming for help and about to leave the bus for asking for help from outside saviors. But he held me,
Don't go, we will go to the college together right?
I was shaking continuously. Blood slipping out hands still managed to said,
We will idiot, nothing will happen. I am coming with help. Wait for me okay... dont close you're eyes. I am coming.
He smiled with tears and nodded. Our hands aparted and i came down to the bus asking for help but no one was coming before i heard the drivers scream,
Come here, you will die.
I just kept screaming
Help us, my friend is there.
But I understood no one will going to help. I took a heavy steel and about to heading for the bus. Then before i could look back the bus blasted. And i was thrown afar. Knocked with a tree. I couldn't even let out Suho's name. Like the word stucked on my throat. And there I was passed out while bleeding through my head.
I woke up at dawn and the whole family was beside me. I said them i am okay just the cold medicines made me slept hard, so they left. The mother made me vegetable porridge. though it felt like a plain water still my hunger made me eat them full.
I washed up and sitting in that dark room, reminding everything every little moments like those were the memory of mine. I kept neglecting them but from the very first I knew this is not my body and this is not where i belong to. And I died a long ago and gotten this punishment of living such as hellish life where this girl prepared herself for give up on this life. I can't ignore it. But the reason I died couldn't still came out clear, and those two life's memory made this head felt like fueling the fire. Of course i myself can be able to bare those pain but this little kid's body can't. I drowned in thoughts in that dark and it felt so comfortable like i came in full incognito.
Before that i felt someone is in front of me, and a cold breeze air flowed smoothly so good that it made me feel more comfortable. So i understood, I lost you everytime my soulmate. Or maybe will in this life too.