50. "HOLY ANGEL"
She appeard from a blink of an eye, I couldn't believe my eyes, "What are you doing here?", I asked with desperation for clarity, she smiled and caressed my face. Man when she stepped closer to my body, I felt a quick weakness in my knees but she kept me together with her beautiful smile, with that dimple on her right side.
Her fingers sent chills down my spine, her lips brought my heart back to life and then her energy guided me back into the light. "Why do you always show up when I'm at my breaking point?", I asked with confusion, she pressed her fingers on my lips and told me to rest.
There's so much peace in her eyes, I found love in her words and safety in her tone, I never thought that I would be a thought in her mind but I've been wrong because here she is, laying me down to a bed of roses.
She left me with something to yearn for, ain't no telling when will she come for me again but she left me with something, "Don't ever hesitate to call for me when you need to", she said and planted a soft kiss on my lips.
These dreams almost feel real, damn.
51. "TWENTY ONE JANUARY"
Lately I've been feeling like we might have to try something else, I was fooling myself getting involved with love and I was delusional thinking I'd make a good lover to somebody's daughter. I think that it's time that I let you go, because if I'm not possessive, I get jealous and controlling, I'm too toxic for anybody to bear with and you're a beautiful girl who deserves much better than I can give.
We fight too much over the smallest shit and I hate how upset I get, so I think you better leave before I bruise that beautiful face of yours. I fell in love when I wasn't supposed to, I let you get too close, things shouldn't have got this deep.
It gets too toxic and I'm also possessive, we fight too much and I get heated easily, so I think it's best if we go our separate ways. The love we used to have is long gone and the respect we used to share is so messed up now, sometimes my anger gets the best of me and then I cuss you out, I don't wanna keep you where you don't belong.
We don't even show each other love anymore, all we spend our time on is fighting about shit that shouldn't even matter, tell me why we're turning my birthday into a fighting match?