Frustrated.
I decided to be on my phone, from responding to recent messages, to checking out some of my aquintances what are they were up to, i wanted to keep doing that until i forget about what just happened.
"Oh my god! What just happened? I can't believe he knows Anna!"
Amira slid over and was admiring the situation, me on the other hand i was very displeased.
"Yeah, I'm shocked too, my best guess they are probably neighbors or childhood friends..."
Haime joined us in a hurry with some breaking news.
"Ay, i was just hearing that, he was studying at Southern Academy... He might be familiar with Tao Len clique, that's probably why he knows Anna, just like Inna told us that other day."
After hearing that i got more frustrated, this is going to be a huge problem. This whole situation had just turned against us.
"This is the worst, if he really is from Southern Academy and knows Anna, he's definitely familiar with Tao, which means they might bring us some trouble."
Amira interrupted:
"That flimsy boy ain't no threat, why would Tao Len hang out with that goofy voiced weirdo?!"
"Don't get fooled by his appearance, as it stand right now, we have to be careful."
Only Haime was thinking like that, and i agreed with her. I was planning on not talking to him anymore, not because he might know Tao Len, but because i was scared of Anna.
...
After the final bell rang, i got out of class heading to pick my gym bag, Haime had cram school so i was planning on going back home alone.
Since it was monday, this used to be an occupied slot not long time ago, suddenly, reminiscing thoughts about Inna consumed my head.
I was feeling the gap of emptiness in my chest was wider than ever, I didn't know what's wrong, i wanted something. No i needed it so badly.
I sat on the stairs for a second, thinking to myself if i was in a different position now and the stuff with Inna never happened, would i be happier?
And the answer was unexplainably yes, even though i got everything figured out i still wanted her, i wanted to at least to talk to her.
She's been absent from school for a while now, i didn't think much of it because a lot of students now focuses on their private education and home studies, since absences have no effect at times like this.
I wanted to move on from Inna, as our relationship didn't workout at the end, that's what i kept telling myself, but deep down i was exhausted from telling myself that.
These thoughts kept flowing in incontrolably, we dismissed each other on a good note, so why am i still not satisfied, what do i do, nothing is there to take my focus away from my feelings towards her.
I took my pills after i picked up my bag and i left school to study at home. I started taking these pills not long time ago.
But those plans were ruined when i felt the presence of someone behind me after i was going through my closet.
'Hello Bina!'
I knew it was the new boy from that goofy voice, it's like the weirdest treaties someone could be recognized from.
"Hi Johnson..."
'I see that you're not with anyone now, and I'm still not familiar with this school, yet, so.... Do you wanna go home together?'
I got paranoid. Thinking to myself; is this supposed to be a set-up by Anna? Is she using him to get back at me?
But i couldn't simply dismiss him right now, plus the way back home is not dangerous; nothing major happens when a lot of people are around so i can eventually lose him at the station.
"Yeah, that's alright."
...
We started to have a conversation after we left the crowd of students.
'I'm sorry for calling you Yuna from Bad Thinking Diary, i realized how wrong i was for that.'
"Yeah... That was bad."
He could've not brought it up at all and i would've been fine... But this is what i have to deal with.
He smiled and apologized with his hands in prayer.
"I'm not really someone that goes for girls who are bad or hot and cute, i just want stability and happiness."
Suddenly he started to talk with a normal voice.
"Like the other boys be weak to a great pair of honkers, i think what I'm looking for is much deeper than that..."
I was concerned about where all these talk came from, but i wasn't against it. So i decided to let him finish before i judge, so i gestured an affirmation at him.
"Hmmm."
And then he went back to his quirky voice.
'So, let me reintroduce myself, I'm Nadeer Johnson, born in the US, likes stability and happiness, nice to meet you.'
"Pleasure to meet you too, Johnson..."
Twelve minutes away from the station, i felt like it's the perfect to address the elephant in the room.
"I see that you're familiar with Raya, is she your acquaintance?" *Seems concerned*
'Oh, Anna... Yes i know Anna from a friend of mine that was at my old school.' he just said with no details.
"... And do you have any feelings towards her?"
I might have came out too nosy there.
'Ain't that supposed to be personal information?'
"... No."
'Oh, so actually i don't have any feelings towards Anna, she's scary and she never open up or befriend me or anything, which makes me sad.'
"I see..."
That girl evilness really knows no limits, but that doesn't mean he's not working with her.
"And so, why did you move here?"
'Well, I'm not very innocent myself, i used to hangout with this group of deliquents, they were the longest group of friends i had been with, i tried to balance my personal life with their bullshit, but i failed, and when he found out, my dad decided to send me here.'
A deliquent group is very matching to our theory that he is familiar with Tao Len.
'But enough about me, i wanna know more about you...'
He said with his sarcastic voice, so i wasn't expecting what was about to come.
"The princess."
That's all he said, and the first person appeared on my mind was, Inna.
But at the time, my understanding was that it was a set up, that him and Anna were good friend and he's bullshiting me, so i was cautious.
"Umm... Who?"
He started to walk slowly, and took a deep breath then let out a smile.
'The Jueji girl, she's our classmate ain't she, even though she didn't wasn't present today...'
"Yeah you're right, she's probably studying for the exams right now so she's not going to be back anytime soon."
I was gonna ask him what he needed her for, but i didn't want to keep this conversation going.
'Oh yeah...? Talk about bad timing huh...'
In that moment, i looked at his eyes and they were filled with a soft look that someone gives when they are in love.
'But it's okay though... Because I've got someone who's going to help achieve to talk to her.'
I didn't know what he meant, what is he insinuating, does he believe that Inna is going to be friendly towards him simply for knowing Anna or any student council member?
Not to mention he's a dork. She's going to hurt his feelings.
"Huhuh, that's amazing, whoever it is I'm probably not going to have faith in your success..."
'I disgree, I think i will, i have a good faith in that person, she looks like the Hinata that's gonna be shipped with her Sakura...'
"..."
I should've understood what he was saying, but i was overwhelmley disgusted by that reference that he just poured out.
"... who."
'It could only be you!'
'...HUH!'
I was so irritated and surprised i let out a quirky voice just like his.
"What even made you think I'm gonna help you?"
'I'm not asking for a favor, I'm just giving you a proposal.'
"What? What do i need from you."
'Anna wants to kill you.'
....