CHAPTER 5 — THE FIRST INVESTMENT
By the eleventh of May, Raghav had decided that the America he remembered and the America he was currently standing in were, technically, the same place and, in every other sense, almost nothing alike.
It wasn't a bad thing. They'd landed on the ninth, exhausted and slightly disbelieving, into an Intel-arranged apartment his father kept describing, with real wonder, as "very organized."
Two days in, the place still didn't feel like theirs — his mother's suitcases only half unpacked, the kitchen cupboards holding a strange mixture of things they'd carried from Punjab and things they'd bought in a supermarket the size of a small stadium.
His father had spent an alarming amount of time on their second day walking slowly around a gas station like a man inspecting a rival's factory floor. His mother had laughed at him for that for two full days running.
Raghav found himself, more than once in those first seventy-two hours, simply forgetting to think about money at all.
That, he decided, watching his mother frown at four nearly identical brands of milk on their first grocery run, was probably a good sign. He didn't intend to spend the whole of his childhood being fifty-two years old in secret. He meant to actually have this part too.
Money found its way into the conversation anyway, quietly, over breakfast, the same morning a copy of The Wall Street Journal showed up on the table for the first time — a gift, apparently, from a neighbor down the hall who'd noticed his father's new employer and decided he'd probably want one. His father had unfolded it with the reverence of a man handling something sacred, then spent most of breakfast reading a single article about semiconductor exports twice.
"Sixty-five thousand," he said eventually, not looking up, still faintly disbelieving of his own good fortune. "A year. Before the housing allowance."
His mother, doing the conversion in her head out of old habit, made a sound that was somewhere between a laugh and genuine shock. "That's more than four times what you were making at SCL."
"I know."
"Do you know? Truly know? You have that face you make when you don't quite believe a number."
"I believe the number," he said, with the wounded dignity of a man who clearly did not yet believe the number. "I simply think it will take some getting used to."
Raghav did the arithmetic himself without meaning to, the old habit refusing to switch off even here. Sixty-five thousand dollars a year was, by any reasonable measure of 1989, an excellent salary. Comfortable. Secure. The kind of number that solved a family's problems for a very long time.
It had nothing to do with the number he actually cared about, and he was careful not to let that show on his face.
His father's salary meant the family was safe. It didn't mean Raghav had permission. Those had been two very different problems for weeks now, and only one of them was solved.
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The money itself wasn't new. It wasn't even something Raghav had been waiting to receive.
That part of the story had already happened, back in Mohali, in a country neither of them lived in anymore. His father had given it to him on an ordinary evening not long after the fire, in a conversation that started so casually Raghav almost missed the moment it turned into something enormous. Kohli's office had processed a formal reward — ten lakh rupees, officially in his father's name, since he'd been the one who ran the response that night.
"It isn't really mine, is it," his father had said, more to himself than to Raghav.
"Papa—"
"Let me finish." He'd looked at his son directly, something careful and entirely immovable in his expression. "I ran into that smoke because you'd already spent a month making sure there was something worth running into. If you hadn't seen what you saw, there'd have been nothing left for me to save.
The award has my name on it. It shouldn't." He'd shaken his head. "It's yours, Raghav. Not an allowance. Not something I'm lending you. The idea was yours. I only carried it out."
He'd arranged the conversion himself before they left — a friend at the bank had helped, at a fair rate. "A little over fifty thousand, once it's all settled," he'd said at the time, waving off the specifics the way a man does when the gesture matters more to him than the exact figure. Raghav had looked it up properly only once, alone, on the account statement his mother kept filed with the rest of their new American paperwork. $50,240. Not an abstraction. Not a plan in a notebook with capital marked *almost zero.* An actual number, sitting quietly in an account, entirely his to lose or grow.
From the night he understood what that number meant, Raghav had wanted to use it.
His mother had said no.
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It had never really stopped, after that.
"Ma, I don't want to spend it," he'd told her the first time, back in India. "I just want to learn how to invest it properly."
"You're twelve."
"That's exactly why I need you."
She'd waved him off that time, and the next, and by the third attempt had stopped pretending to take it seriously — which he understood, strategically, as considerably worse than an outright no. He'd tried everything after that. Polite. Persistent.
He'd promised not to touch the principal, then promised to risk only some small, carefully unspecified percentage of it. He'd once produced a three-page written case for why fifty thousand dollars sitting idle was itself a decision, complete with a section he'd been rather proud of titled *Reasons This Is Not Gambling.*
His mother had read exactly the first page.
"You're twelve," she'd said, and handed the rest back unread.
It had followed them through the packing, the goodbyes, an airport where she'd had considerably larger things on her mind. Somewhere over the Pacific he'd tried once more — "We could at least open the account when we get there" — and gotten nothing but a tired, unimpressed "*Raghav.*" that ended it faster than any real argument could have.
Once they landed, it simply resumed, woven into the ordinary rhythm of a family finding its feet.
"Ma."
"No."
"You haven't even heard what I want."
"I know exactly what you want. You've wanted the same thing since the day your father gave you that money."
"That doesn't mean the answer has to stay the same."
"It means I haven't changed my mind," she said, not unkindly, already moving to the next item on whatever list currently occupied her. "We are still finding the grocery store, Raghav. We'll discuss your money once we're settled."
By the second day it had become something close to a family joke — Raghav raising it at breakfast, at dinner, once in the middle of a conversation about which street the post office was on, and his mother deflecting each attempt with the patient, slightly amused firmness of a woman who'd decided this was simply what her son did now.
But the refusal was never really about the grocery store. Part of her hesitation came from the fire — Raghav had been impossibly right once before, and she still hadn't quite decided whether that made her trust his instincts more, or worry about them more.
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It shifted, in the end, on the evening she came home from the bank.
She had spent years in banking back in India — corporate relationships, accounts large enough that she knew exactly how money moved through an institution rather than just sitting in one. She'd gone in that morning mostly to sort the family's own accounts. What she came home with, by evening, was considerably more.
"They've offered me a position," she said at dinner, in the tone she might have used to mention buying vegetables. "Bank of America. Corporate banking — relationship management. Assistant Vice President, they're calling it, though the woman I spoke with was very careful to tell me twice that it still has to clear references and some final paperwork before it's official."
His father blinked. "You applied for a job? Today?"
"I mentioned my background while I was there sorting out our accounts. One conversation led to another." She said it plainly. "My experience translates well enough, once they got past being surprised I had any. But nothing's signed yet. I'll know for certain in a week or two."
"You want to work," his father said. It wasn't quite a question.
"I want my own life here. Not just the one that happens because of your job." She glanced, briefly, at Raghav. "We don't need the money. This isn't about the money."
Raghav, listening quietly, found himself unexpectedly moved by that — his mother, in this life or the one before it, wanting something entirely her own.
If it cleared, she'd start within a few weeks, but something about the decision itself — choosing, deliberately, to step back into a version of herself she'd set aside for the move — seemed to settle something in her that had nothing to do with banking at all. Raghav noticed it clearing the table that evening, and decided this was probably not the night to ask again.
He was wrong. It turned out to be exactly the night.
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She found him on the balcony afterward, notebook closed on his lap.
"You haven't asked me today," she said, settling into the chair beside him.
"I was going to let it rest for a few days."
"That would be a first." She looked out at the street. "Tell me again. Properly. Not the short version you give me at breakfast when you think I'm not listening."
So he told her — properly, the way he hadn't quite let himself before. That the money was his. That he didn't want to spend it, only to understand it, slowly and correctly, the way she understood banking. That he knew he was twelve, and knew exactly how that sounded. That he wanted her, not his father, because she'd actually know if he was about to do something foolish.
She listened without interrupting, which was, somehow, more unsettling than any of her refusals.
When he finished, she didn't answer right away.
"What happens if you're wrong?" she asked.
"Then I lose," Raghav said.
"That's it? That's your answer?"
"No. If I'm wrong, I need to understand why, not just shrug and try again. But I'm not going to pretend I can't lose, just because I think I know what's coming. That would be a worse lie than the one you're already worried about."
"How much. If you're wrong."
"I don't know yet."
"Then you haven't thought this through."
"I've thought about the direction. I haven't decided the size of the bet. Those are different questions, and I didn't want to answer the second before I'd settled the first."
Something shifted in her expression — not quite approval, but close to it.
"Fine," she said.
Raghav was fairly sure he'd misheard her. "Fine?"
"Yes. I'll help you." She held up a hand before he could say anything. "Conditions. The money is yours. I won't let you gamble it away because you're certain of something twelve-year-olds have no business being certain of. I won't simply do what you tell me — every decision, you explain to me first, properly, the way you'd explain it to someone who has to sign her name to it. I'll ask questions, and you'll answer them honestly. And because you're twelve, I remain the person whose name is actually on anything we open. You don't get to forget that part, however well this goes."
"I understand."
"Do you?" She studied him a moment longer than the question required. "I've watched grown men lose their families' savings being certain they understood markets better than they did. I don't think you're one of those men. But you're twelve, and even very intelligent twelve-year-olds aren't immune to believing themselves invincible."
"I know exactly how much I don't know," Raghav told her, which was, in its own strange way, the most honest sentence he'd said to either of his parents since the memories had returned.
She didn't ask what he meant by it. "We'll do the paperwork tomorrow," she said, standing. "Don't celebrate. This is permission, not a promise it goes well."
"I know."
"Good." She paused at the door. "And thank you for not asking at breakfast tomorrow. I'd like one morning of feeling like I made this decision myself."
"I would never," Raghav said, entirely unconvincingly, and got the first real laugh out of her in days.
---
She found him out there again a little later, having apparently decided one balcony conversation hadn't been enough for the evening.
"What exactly do you want to buy?" she asked. "Since we're doing this properly tomorrow, I should know before I sign anything."
"Nothing," Raghav said.
"Nothing?"
"Not stocks."
"Then what am I opening an account for?"
"Currency."
"Currency," she repeated, in the flat, testing tone of someone deciding whether she'd heard correctly.
"The yen."
"You want to trade Japanese currency." Not quite a question yet, but heading there.
"Yes."
"Why?"
"Japan's economy is running very hot right now," he said. "Property, stocks, all of it, priced higher than makes real sense. Markets that hot for that long tend to correct. When Japan's does, I think it drags the yen into real instability with it. I don't know exactly which way it moves first, or when. I know the currency's sitting on top of something that isn't going to hold, and I want to be positioned for that before everyone else notices."
She studied him, the specific look of a banker deciding whether she was hearing an insight or an obsession dressed up as one. "That's not nothing," she admitted, grudgingly. "Where did you hear it?"
"I read a lot," Raghav said, which had gotten him through this exact question before and would, he suspected, need to keep working for a while yet.
She didn't push, though her eyes lingered a beat too long. "You're calling this an investment. It sounds like speculation to me."
"You're right. It is, narrowly — one position, one view."
"Then why call it an investment?"
"Because I'm not trying to get rich off one trade. I'm trying to build something I can keep using, keep growing. The yen's the first step, not the whole plan."
"And you're certain."
"I'm certain about the instability. Not the direction, and not the timing. I don't know if it happens smoothly or scares everyone first before it goes where I think it's going." He held her gaze. "Being right that something's about to break isn't the same as knowing which way it breaks, or when. That part I still have to work out."
That landed better than anything else he'd said all evening.
"How does one even do that," she asked, half to herself. "Trade against a currency. You don't just walk in and buy the opposite of it."
"I don't know yet. I know it's possible. I don't know what it looks like here, through your bank, in 1989 — futures, forward contracts, something else.
Whether there's leverage, how much, what happens to the fifty thousand if I use it and I'm wrong about the timing." He looked down at the notebook. "You don't just press a button and bet against a currency. I know that much. I just don't know yet what you do instead."
"Well," she said, straightening, something like amusement creeping back into her voice. "Good thing we have a broker to ask, then. Tomorrow."
---
The yen sat in his memory with a clarity that made almost everything else about 1989 look blurry by comparison — not the precise dates, but the shape of the thing. Japan's economy running dangerously hot, property and equities priced for a future with no real chance of arriving. Instability coming, in the years just ahead, though not a clean, obedient slide from one number to another so much as a longer, messier story with strength in it as well as weakness, depending on exactly when you looked.
He wrote it down carefully, the way he'd write down something he only half trusted rather than something settled.
*USD/JPY — May 1989*
*Current: ~¥130/$*
*Long-term thesis: Yen instability, driven by Japan's asset bubble. Direction of first major move uncertain.*
*Confidence: High on instability. Low on exact timing and path.*
*Instrument: TBD*
*Leverage: TBD*
*Maximum acceptable loss: TBD*
Three blank fields, each one a reminder that knowing where a market ended up and knowing how to actually get money from one side of that move to the other were entirely different skills.
In his old life, this would have been simple. Open a screen, place a position, get confirmation in seconds.
Here, in 1989, his mother would have to call a broker. A telephone. A conversation. Paperwork. A confirmation that might arrive a day later, by mail, while the *Journal* on the breakfast table printed prices that were already stale by the time his eyes reached them.
Raghav found the slowness strangely reassuring.
Everyone else was working with the same limitations. Nobody had a live feed in their pocket. Nobody could see the future.
He could.
For once, that was enough.
Knowing the ending wasn't the same as knowing how to walk there safely, through a system built at a completely different pace than the one he remembered. But it was, he thought, closing the notebook, a considerably better problem to have than the one he'd been carrying a month ago, standing in a smoke-filled corridor with nothing but a hundred fire extinguishers and a hope that it would be enough.
He closed the notebook, set it down, and sat a while longer on a balcony that overlooked a street he still didn't quite know the name of.
His father had given him the money because he believed Raghav had earned it. His mother had just agreed to help him because she believed he might, possibly, be responsible enough to keep it. Those weren't the same thing. One was a gift. The other was a test he hadn't finished taking yet.
He had come to America with fifty thousand dollars.
Tonight, for the first time, he had something more valuable.
His mother's trust.
Tomorrow, he'd have to prove he deserved it.
The money could wait one more day. The market would still be there in the morning, moving at its own patient, unhurried, 1989 pace, entirely unaware that someone was finally paying attention who already knew where it was going.
He waited.
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